Polenta scares the shit out of every member of Benzo Buddies by claiming to be in drug withdrawal for nineteen years!

Re: Post Benzo Protracted Withdrawal Support Group
« Reply #770 on: August 8, 2012, 11:36:39 PM »

liosnasi

Polenta. I see you are benzo free since 1993 and you still consider yourself in protracted withdrawal. Could you say a little more about your present situation and what symptoms you have. Maybe I’ve missed other posts from you that explain this. That’s nineteen years of withdrawal. Am I the only one shaken up by that statistic?

Re: Post Benzo Protracted Withdrawal Support Group
« Reply #773 on: August 9, 2012, 01:04:49 AM »

Whoopsie

Quote from: liosnasi on August 8, 2012, 11:36:39 PM
Polenta. I see you are benzo free since 1993 and you still consider yourself in protracted withdrawal. Could you say a little more about your present situation and what symptoms you have. Maybe I’ve missed other posts from you that explain this. That’s nineteen years of withdrawal. Am I the only one shaken up by that statistic?

No you are not Lionasi. I’m also thinking about Polenta too and how awful it would be to suffer that long. 

Re: Post Benzo Protracted Withdrawal Support Group
« Reply #774 on: August 9, 2012, 01:32:16 AM »

believe

Quote from: liosnasi on August 8, 2012, 11:36:39 PM
Polenta. I see you are benzo free since 1993 and you still consider yourself in protracted withdrawal. Could you say a little more about your present situation and what symptoms you have. Maybe I’ve missed other posts from you that explain this. That’s nineteen years of withdrawal. Am I the only one shaken up by that statistic?

YES! That is VERY disturbing indeed! I’m not so worried about the majority of people here because I feel they will heal. Over the last 2.5 years here I have seen alot do so. But what angers me is the poor souls that are still sick after that long. My heart goes out to you Polenta. Dont be afraid to post here. We need to face the truth about how long this can take. Plus you need the support! Please let us know what you have learned in that many years about wd. If you are too afraid to post here then PM me.

We have a date of after 18 months is protracted wd, at what time should it be considered permanent? 10, 20 50 years? A lifetime?

I will confess that I was better on than off. Ive been sick with little quality of life compared to the way I was living before my ct. I often ask myself, how long will I allow myself to suffer before I decide to do something like another med. After 10 years I think i will. What good is it to wait for 20 years just to see if im healed by then. That is wayyyyy to long to suffer. :- (

Re: Post Benzo Protracted Withdrawal Support Group
« Reply #776 on: August 9. 2012, 09:22:58 AM »

Polenta

I have a thread “Protracted withdrawal” in the Introductions section. Please remember that I must have ct’d over and over again at least 6 times, because I did not know my sx were drug related and believed my idiot GP. This was a long time ago when i had no access to any info at all. Una says Cold Turkeys are the most important factor in recovery time, after that, she thinks it is metabolism (different for everybody). I don’t have the energy to go into it more at the moment, but I will have a think about what I have learned and then maybe start a buddy blog.

I am not alone, Mick Behan of the APPGITA is taking as long as me to recover and I know of several other people. Luckily we are in a minority, because it is very very hard.

Polenta

will write more another time.

PS thanks for all the support, I keep forgetting to say that! My excuse today is a bad night so “my head hurts like a warehouse” as I heard someone coming down from ecstasy saying – I know exactly what he means!

Re: Post Benzo Protracted Withdrawal Support Group
« Reply #778 on: August 9, 2012, 01:51:55 PM »

liosnasi

Polenta. Read all your previous posts his morning.

You don’t need to write any more to explain. It’s all there.

I’m overwhelmed by admiration of your courage and by a deep deep sympathy for what you’ve had to go through. But I suspect you don’t want to hear that crap and neither would I. It’s true none the less.

All of us in protracted withdrawal however, fear the monster that’s taken you over and we have to admit it straight up. It colours all our thinking even as we try to fight it. We become lost in ourselves. There’s nothing I can say to make things better as you’ve heard t all before from more sympathetic people than me. Nonetheless I admire you and love your courage.

There are hundred of symptoms in this nightmare but to me the overriding loss is the loss of fun. Wild animals give up having fun when they grow up to do what nature makes them do. The human species goes on seeking out fun for ever. It makes life worthwhile. I can only wish that you like all the others in this nightmare have fun again one day soon.

Re: Post Benzo Protracted Withdrawal Support Group
« Reply #780 on: August 9, 2012, 02:56:08 PM »

ginger1222

Quote from: believe on August 9, 2012, 01:32:16 AM
Quote from: liosnasi on August 8, 2012, 11:36:39 PM

Polenta. I see you are benzo free since 1993 and you still consider yourself in protracted withdrawal. Could you say a little more about your present situation and what symptoms you have. Maybe I’ve missed other posts from you that explain this. That’s nineteen years of withdrawal. Am I the only one shaken up by that statistic?

YES! That is VERY disturbing indeed! I’m not so worried about the majority of people here because I feel they will heal. Over the last 2.5 years here I have seen alot do so. But what angers me is the poor souls that are still sick after that long. My heart goes out to you Polenta. Dont be afraid to post here. We need to face the truth about how long this can take. Plus you need the support! Please let us know what you have learned in that many years about wd. If you are too afraid to post here then PM me.

We have a date of after 18 months is protracted wd, at what time should it be considered permanent? 10, 20 50 years? A lifetime?

I will confess that I was better on than off. Ive been sick with little quality of life compared to the way I was living before my ct. I often ask myself, how long will I allow myself to suffer before I decide to do something like another med. After 10 years I think i will. What good is it to wait for 20 years just to see if im healed by then. That is wayyyyy to long to suffer. 😦

IMO. we’ll know if we’ve completely healed on our deathbed. If we’re in a window when that time comes, then we were healed. If we’re in a wave, then, well, it wasn’t a wave at all, but “permanent.” Seriously: I know that sounds sarcastic but that’s how I feel!

You’re not the only one who feels they were better on than off.

Sucks, don’t it?

ginger